King Of Wishes

Even the King liked to get in on the act, well OK so this was just for a film, but I do wonder how many women would love to swap places with her....Form an orderly queue ladies, preferably behind me!!!!
My wish I found this today and can honestly say I LOVED IT!!!!!!
I really; really love the way this is shot, the way the man stays so in control, keeping his voice calm and steady, always in control. I expect that it is too tame for many people, and even to my untrained eye I can see how it would be. However there is something very masculine with a bubbling threat of worse to come in the way in which he deals out the punishment here. Not to mention a very practise, firm hand.

I just wish that was me over his knee.
Now how to show this to my partner.

I have watched this 15 times since I found it and it is making me so hot and horny.

Stumbling into Mr Stephenson's Office.

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About Me.

I have no idea where to start.
I want to be as honest as possible.
I need to keep my anonymity.
I am a female.
I am 38.
I have three children.
I don't know how to tell him I want more than he is giving me.
I have totally different sexual needs to him.

I like being spanked, and I want more.
BDSM turns me on, a lot.
I would love to have a Master, who would totally dominate me.
I think the fantasy of being owned will always remain just that, a fantasy.

McLintock.

McLintock

This is the film that turned me on to being spanked, I never miss it when it is on.

It got me thinking about what it would be like to have a man that dominated me.

Trouble was I really didn't realise it at the time and for years thought there was something wrong with me for thinking that way.

It wasn't until I got a lap top a year ago that the whole world opened up to me.

Suddenly I wasn't alone with my thoughts and feelings. Years previously I had told my husband that I had these thoughts and he told me that I was depraved and promptly moved out of our marital bed and into our spare room.

He barely speaks to me these days, unless it is to order me around and tell me that I am a dirty whore, a cunt and worthless. But he doesn't realise that when he calls me names it turns me on greatly and so I do things to piss him off, so that he will get mad at me and call me names.

I like to walk around the house and do the housework naked or wearing sexy underwear.
He gets really mad at me and calls me a slut, bitch, whore, and any thing else he can think off and I LOVE IT.

So I will keep doing it, even though he won't touch me, because he really believes what he calls me. I never leave the house without him, he won't allow it. But he doesn't stop me from using the inter net.

Beginning

This feels like virginal territory and rebirth for me right now.
How do I make contact with like minded people?
Where do I go from here?
How do I find a Master, who would understand that leaving my family is not at this moment in time possible?
And yet: I long to be owned and submissive!!!!!

So This Is Me.

So this is me and here I am.

This blog is about my life, such as it is,
built on a foundation of lies, lies and more.

You see there is very little that is the truth in my life.

Here is the truths:-

I am a mum of 3.
I live in London.
I live with my partner while I love very much does not give me what I need and I have no way of telling him and explaining it to him as he has already said that it is NOT what he wants.

So far so good, well goodish haha.

There are reasons why I lie and although I know that people will judge me, maybe they should hold back at first and wait to find out why my whole life is a lie.

It's not as simple as I got up one morning and thought "How best can I ruin my own life?"

There were other people in this big fat life, that is my life, but they are all dead now and I am the only one left standing. Except my older brother, who warned me against this lie and it's consequences, the only one who tried to protect me from it all, for my own sake. However even he believes that it has gone too far now to turn back the clock and put it all right.
There are people who would be deeply hurt if the truth was revealed. Damage to innocent people who don't deserve it.